Lily of the Valley

The right move and offer

The package offered getting bigger and more responsibilities... Urgently and desperately wanting me to join them soon... I can't wait to join them too.. but I've to be responsible, to give a month notice. It's a tough decision to make on the spot that day, I consulted my sis, my hubby, my dearest friends, dearest ex and current colleagues.

I felt quite in a dilemma mood... I don't want to hurt my RO, she's really a wonderful lady and we do love working together but for once, I've to be selfish, for my future career, I need to do that...

I reached home around 10pm... Surf the net, have a good bath... and at 11:15pm... I made that move. I submitted at 11:30pm (auspicious time)... Zoom...

I immediately messaged my RO and told her I'll chat with her tomorrow. I also messaged my closest colleagues and then I switched off my mobile.

I slept through the night without waking up... Was a wonderful and peaceful night... For once...

The next day, no one is the office.. except 4423... We chatted and unfortunately caught by 1158...

I had a good talk with my RO, telling her the truth why I want to move. Leader is my main problem and of course I'll have no market value if I do stay any longer.

Surprisingly, 4423 told me something unexpected... 1158 in a way interrogated 4423, "did you help Lily to find a job"... 4423 was shocked at the way 1158 asked. OMG... what a S***!

You inteprete the rest of the story yourself.

My intepretation of this leader:
(a) insecure
(b) unstable
(c) lousy
(d) porcelain
(e) brainless
(f) pretty (but only for a period)
(g) baby-sitter
(h) yaya-papaya (damn damn damn)
(i) "And so" & "And then"
(j) a "No No" person with "No No" direction
(k) and the list goes on...

Hai... really sad about this, a leader can cause problem to a department.. I hope myself will not be like that... being a leader leading a team... I hope I won't have any bad footsteps of her to bring along...

But I will definitely miss all my dearest colleagues here....Sob Sob

Friday the 13th

Friday the 13th suppose to be an omen day... Unfortunately, it's my most luckily day and most significant day to remember so many things happened in a day...

First, Happy Birthday to my dearest Sister... She has been my best sister, best listener and forever my love sibling. Thanks for taking great care of me and loving me as the youngest.

This morning, a drama serial was filmed. 325 came into the office, but instead of parking the car, he made a round at the roundabout... If he was here for meeting, how come round the roundabout.. I slowly get out from the car, moved slowly and turned my back... 325 saw me, I turned and smiled, hopping I can see more... but there's nothing... 1158 not at the cubicle leh...hmmm, so what is 325 doing?

4423 hissed me... I turned and looked... And BINGO... You mean u saw what I saw.... We both laughed out loud and rolling with "laughing jazz".

4423 was driving behind 1158, instead turning to the season parking lot, 4423 saw 325 and decided to park under the mango tree.

4423 waited a while before getting out of his car, 4423 just didn't want to bump into 325 or 1158 into the office. After a while, 4423 walked out of his car... and SHOCKED... 325 drove off together with 1158 in the car... OMG!!!

Well... as for the rest of the story.... your intepretation...

I had gotten an offer of a new "main course" ... a big one and more responsibilities... At last I can ditch the "main course" in my current plate and move on... I can't wait for the day... I'm really happy...

Somehow, I glad I dropped an email to "her"... I can sense her disturbance for the week... I glad I didn't have to probe to find out more... guess afterall is the trust... I had given most friends my words and trust and I'm glad I'm chosen to be confide in all secrets... Don't worry, friends, your secrets are always secrets... I'll keep my promise... but I glad I see the smile, cheers on her again... I just love that...

I'm the 1st 1000 to won something worth $39.90.... Hey, need not spend any $$$ to get that... Wasn't it my lucky day...

I think life is different for me now... I'm looking forward... I'm enjoying my day.... I guess a change in attitude and temper do works... I'll keep on maintaining and hope to do better and better each day... I'm sure I can do it...

Friday the 13th July 2007 is a memorable day for me!!!!!

Moving on...

It’s a new week and new month… Times really flies, half of 2007 had past in a swift.

Decision was set in my mind to let go the unhappiness and stop torturing myself in the environment I no longer feel worth staying for especially when works were not appreciated and problems arise, though everyone in the team knows wasn’t my fault but no one stands out to defense, “directionless”, poor leadership etc. Wondering how come such a leader exists in the organization. I felt betrayed, people here are trust worthless. Many wore two masks, in front of you, displayed the good side to win your trust, but at the back, you felt the pain at your back with arrows sticking out. And problems arise, you are the target board and shall NEVER be hopeful that anyone to help you.

I’m reluctant to let go because there are still a minority of colleagues worth working together but thinking for myself, whether selfishness or what, I’ve to let go.

I felt happier and more relieved for the decision I made and thanks for the support from the rest of my friends. Life moves on…

I like to take this opportunity to thank my dearest for all the little small actions he done. Like this morning, he warmed up my chicken essence unconditionally without me having to instruct or anything. He did it out of my surprise and really warmed my heart and soul. The little action and gestures do bring our marriage and love closer than ever. He makes himself foolishly in front of me makes my day brighter. I love you forever. Thanks for your unconditional love.

2 more days to go and we will know the results. I can’t wait to move on, I can’t wait to hear the good results and I can’t wait for the next action plan…I just can’t wait, I want to know now and now…

Sad news I heard from my chat friend, she lost her baby again. The blow is really too hard for her, especially for her case, she was already in 2nd trimester. I felt the blow and sadness when I heard about it and tears slide down my cheek. Why she again?

Notice life is really unpredictable; you won’t know what's going to happen next. So move on and lead a happy life. Though sometimes things really anger you but you just can’t change the faith or whatsoever, all I know is move on and be happy. You can grieve, be angry etc but that’s only for temporary, see the road in front and move….I’ve been telling myself that, move and move and be happy.