Monday, May 21, 2007
The last leap and the new hurdle
Years pass like a bout of lightning… It swifts from ¼ of the century to the new leap of life… Looking back, there are too many unhappiness, happiness, ups and downs, hurdles and hurdles… I traced back the path I walked, I traced back every single moments. I shed my tears for all that had happened which I supposed to forgive and forget but somehow, I couldn’t let go some of them… Maybe it had lingered to my life too much, too much to forget… especially the incident happened last year.
Walking into the next hurdle, I’m sure there’ll be more to forgive and forget. But life still has to move on…
18 May is always a significant day… The day POPE is born too… the day I came into this earth, this planet.
This year I thought will be the same… but surprise and surprise… Things I never expected… I received the most expensive gift, something precious…
Oops..from SINCERE… I know what’s the gift… without opening, it had already melted my heart, it’s melted because he gave me the unconditional, pricey and one I desired without any pinch of pain.
Surprises from ex-colleagues and colleagues, never had I expected a surprise birthday celebration, never had I expected a bouquet of roses from the 11 of them for remembering.
The actions and thoughts by them melted my heart, melted my soul and almost shed a tear… All gifts received are well and most appreciated.
There’s something I need to work on… I know I can make it… but was just too afraid the same disaster will happened again… Though I keep telling myself that it won’t and it won’t, but the fear is still there, the sadness is still there…
My wish for this year and ahead was the same… The two wishes I made were the same… I hope my wishes will be answered.
Once again, I like to take this opportunity to thank my dearest who has made my life so great and wonderful, unconditionally love me for what I am, and unconditionally walked the toughest path with me… make me like a pampered puppy and princess. I can only say, you are my everything!
posted by Puppy
3:54 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
I appreciates...
Thanks for the compliment... "You are prettier and young as before"... Opened my mouth, I don't know what to say... This is the 1st time I heard from his mouth after 7 years...
Hey, I never use BOTOX... Are you trying to tell me something? But you've missed the train... no point turning back. Time for you to move on...
Thanks for catching up again... though is not too long... but I'm know is long to you.
Anyway, thanks for reminding the group and surprise me with that celebration, I never expect.
To my dearest friends, thanks for the night... Thanks for celebrating in advance... I never regret knowing all of you from friends/colleagues to ex-colleagues/long time friends, you've walked with me every year without failed and surprised me most when I unexpected!
Time really flies... from baby to teenager to working adult... and soon...
I can't image I have aged and start to become "Ms Agony" to most of you... Though I know I'm not a counsellor but I believe I have given all the best advises I could, although at times, I'm too direct, too bland, or even too much... I sure you all have learnt and pick up, move on...
You all said there's 2 sides of me... The one who is quiet and the wild side.... Who am I? Only you knows me well... I can be both at the same time... But I'm not a GEMINI! I'm a TAURUS!
As I see myself moving into another cycle, I see myself more sentimental, values you all more... I thanks all of you for the friendship and not forgetting the one who walks with me thru all the highs and lows... You've been there supporting me at my most down stage... You really treat me not just a wife but a pampered wife which jealous most of the couples out there...
I maybe hard to please at times, but I know you'll do your best to pamper me... I really not sure how I had overcome the hurdles without you last year... all I can say is in the music...
I'm waiting to celebrate the upcoming celebrations... In May, In June... and soon...
Last but not least, endless thanks for all of you in my life... regardless before, after, or even NOW... I appreciates
posted by Puppy
11:40 PM
Another winner emerged...
Another winner emerged… Yes, I mean another winner… The queen had lost another battle… Soon, there will be more…
Am waiting for the appetizer to happen soon… I still not satisfied with the appetizer offered… I need more if the plate is getting bigger and wider and even more… I know they can give me a better appetizer choice, I know they can… afterall, I ate before…
However, thinking to switch to this new plate of appetizer makes me wonder again… I left the plate last round because there are too many choices that are not clear what they are made of… Now if I take the same appetizer again, will the choices be clearer… Only when I choose and eat, I’ll know…
Many of my buddies tell me not to take that plate, it’s not the right choice… but I love the challenge to experience the taste. I love the choices given, I love the freedom of choices, I love the environment to sample my appetizer but will I regret like 2 years ago…
I know this move of appetizer shall be the best and not the worst like now. In hand, there are a few appetizer too… but I’m not interested, either too sweet or too bland to taste. So far, this appetizer is the best among the 3 as it’s something I familiar with, it’s something different, it’s something I wanted to do all along, the plate is big with many choices and of course there are people around I know. Why… why not, why not a good choice???
Am waiting change of appetizer menu again…. Hope this appetiser will be the best birthday gift ever... :)
posted by Puppy
5:22 PM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Thoughts and just thoughts...
After weeks of babysitting, I felt motherhood is not that easy afterall... I asked myself, am I ready, will I be able to coach my own children in the manner I want, will I… and more will I…
At last the new maid is here. Little monkey and the maid is a total stranger. The fear in approaching the new maid showed. She uses the corner of her eyes to look at her in the unfriendly manner. She fears till cry… but I guess it just need time to adjust this stranger into the family.
Moving on… your unfriendliness at my quests for the night… don’t disturb my beauty sleep for the quests in the morning… :)
Away again… I hope this is only the needs… seems like getting more and more lately… I’m really tired… :(
2 more days to go… our hope is getting nearer… The path is not easy, I don’t deny that, the wait and wait and wait makes me feel more disappointed… Wondering if I can turn back the clock, if he didn’t reject me, the rejection hurts till today… I believe life will be different… Sigh, what I said now is no turning point; just have to look forward… Life still goes on though at times I still grudge with regrets and hates.
Oh… can’t work my brain on paper again… Here I goes, write my thoughts and feelings… Hopefully will load the mind off some memory for my paper…
posted by Puppy
11:13 AM
Once again, I like to take this opportunity to thank my dearest who has made my life so great and wonderful, unconditionally love me for what I am, and unconditionally walked the toughest path with me… make me like a pampered puppy and princess. I can only say, you are my everything!