Thoughts and just thoughts...
After weeks of babysitting, I felt motherhood is not that easy afterall... I asked myself, am I ready, will I be able to coach my own children in the manner I want, will I… and more will I…At last the new maid is here. Little monkey and the maid is a total stranger. The fear in approaching the new maid showed. She uses the corner of her eyes to look at her in the unfriendly manner. She fears till cry… but I guess it just need time to adjust this stranger into the family.
Moving on… your unfriendliness at my quests for the night… don’t disturb my beauty sleep for the quests in the morning… :)
Away again… I hope this is only the needs… seems like getting more and more lately… I’m really tired… :(
2 more days to go… our hope is getting nearer… The path is not easy, I don’t deny that, the wait and wait and wait makes me feel more disappointed… Wondering if I can turn back the clock, if he didn’t reject me, the rejection hurts till today… I believe life will be different… Sigh, what I said now is no turning point; just have to look forward… Life still goes on though at times I still grudge with regrets and hates.
Oh… can’t work my brain on paper again… Here I goes, write my thoughts and feelings… Hopefully will load the mind off some memory for my paper…
